"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~ Mark Twain

Sunday, September 20, 2009

10 minutes to breathe...

I can't really say how long it has been since there was an update on my life...I can't really remember when the last thing happened that was worth updating. Sad, isn't it? To be honest this is practically the first time in weeks that I've even thought about being able to sit down and reminisce about things that happened that were worth sharing. My life has been one constant GO, no time to breathe. Between my thesis translation and translations for my cultural and technical classes I have zero time. It is so bad I even wake myself up at 7:30 am so that I can be working by 8. I never thought grad school would be easy...but then I never thought it would be this totally draining either.

As I'm sitting here now, Jack Johnson serenading me from iTunes and the sound of the Giants/Cowboys game in the background I realize just how little I have been able to do. Last night I went to the movies with my tico brother...the first time I've seen him in probably 3 weeks or a month. I haven't made it back to Barva for a good length of time in even longer than that. I haven't seen the coast of Costa Rica since um...May. I need a vacation. Bad. And yet, here I am...still going...already looking forward to the 2nd of December. Not even the 28th of November (when classes end)...why doesn't the thought of not having any more homework excite me? No, I'm more excited about the day when I get to leave and go home...to see Mom and Gus, family, friends...I need a breather. Thankfully this coming weekend I have no classes...just a conference I'm obligated to go to. Boring yes, but that means I have no specific homework due this weekend...and yet, still, the only thing I can think of going...keep going...keep translating...get ahead of the game...and maybe by November things will calm down. It's in my head now. I don't even remember how to relax.

Besides the piles of translations I have due for classes, I have a few paid one's to get finished too. No, I'm not complaining, but one has most definitely been the most challenging one I have done so far. Technical gun terminology into Spanish is not my thing. I have learned a few things, like, what a hopper is or a slide check, even an open bolt blow-back...now ask me how to translate them, and I'm still clueless. And the worst part is, everything has a due date...and it comes a lot faster than I always hope.

Other news...I am moving...again. In June I moved into an apartment in Heredia from my house in Barva. Now I am moving from my apartment in Heredia to another apartment three blocks away. I was speaking with a friend of mine one day about where I lived, live etc. and she said "don't you want a roommate"...turns out I was just starting to look for one so it worked out perfectly. She was going to move in here, but my apartment is furnished, and she already had everything, so we looked for another unfurnished apartment and are moving in there together. She's there now, while I'm sitting here nostalgically, staring at bare walls and remember the pictures I had up just hours ago. Packing. I am always packing. Always leaving. I love it and I hate it. I'm moving to an apartment that isn't as nice as the one I have now, not as new, or as bright, but it is cheaper and I won't be lonely anymore. I will finally be able to plan my trips to Panama and Nicaragua and apply for my visas because I will have money to save. I think that is what really made me decide to move. I had originally said I wouldn't move unless I found an apartment that I loved as much as this one and was a lot cheaper. Impossible. But then I started thinking about my dreams of traveling and how staying here there is no money for that. The thought of visiting Panama trumps the luxuriousness of this apartment and so, yesterday I said I would move. And tomorrow I have to be out. Another rush. Another day of only GO.

To a point GO is good. It keeps me occupied. It keeps my mind off the guy that didn't work out after 7 months "together" or the fact that I spend most of my time alone (its a catch-22...I like being alone so I can get my work done, but I focus on my work so as not to miss company). And it keeps my mind focused on my future and the day I finally get to go home and establish a life for myself as a translator with a master's degree...its all worth it in the end...I just have to get there.